I've tried to put the past behind
God knows I've tried to get your face out of my mind
But in all I've tried, I don't know what to do
Drives me crazy, 'cuz all I can think of is you
But I guess it's alright
I'll just stay out of sight
I just wish that there could be
Another you and me
Look at her, what's she got that I don't?
Only thing comes to mind is what she won't
And don't think that I haven't seen the way she treats you
Baby, listen to me, she ain't the one for you
It's so hard but still I try
But I can't just sit here and stand by
I can't watch you be
With someone that ain't me
Now a lotta things happened we hadn't planned
But I think it's safe to say we now understand
'Cuz of all that's happened, I wouldn't change the past
It's brought us closer, and we're together at last
And one day when I'm grown and old
I pray you're the one I hold
Dear and near to me
As I sing you to sleep
Let me take you outta the rain.
And hold you by the fire.
I wanna take away your hurt and your pain
And give what you desire.
I wanna scare away your problems
'Till there's nothing left to fret
I'll be the one who solves them
And then you can forget
'Cuz all that makes me happy
Is all that's inside you
If you are safe and happy baby
Then I've nothing left to do
If I were a superhero
You'd be my Kryptonite
You'd be my only weakness
I couldn't put up a fight
And oh, my precious Angel
You mean the world to me
Know that I would do anything for you, baby
If it would only make you happy.
'Cuz all that makes me happy
Is all that's inside you
If you are safe and happy, baby
I've nothing left to do
'Cuz all that makes me happy
Is all that's inside you
If you are safe and happy, baby girl
Then I've nothing left to do
I want nothing left to do...
"I Love You More Than Jello"
All songs written by Sarah Golden
Copyright © 2001/2002 "Sarah's First Works" ASCAP
All rights reserved
Pop in the latest Sundance short film
Hit play on the remote
You'll sit back and enjoy the movie
I'll sit back and dote
I don't really get what they're saying
But I smile anyway
'Never could read subtitles that quickly
So my mind goes astray
You pour your heart out on paper
I do mine with rhyme
It's great we can show what we're feelin
We're bound to have a good time
I never really got that abstract stuff
Didn't make much sense to me
But I can feel exactly what you're feeling
Cuz your art is done so beautifully
But I'm glad we're both so different
Even though we're so alike
They say opposites go together
They're absolutely right
And I'm glad we're both so different
All the while so alike
They say opposites attract
Boy are they right...
They're absolutely right
You're tugging at my heart
I can feel it in my lungs
Feel it in my throat
Feel it in my tongue
My eyes begin to water
And my ears to bleed
As this detrimental friendship
Takes its toll on me
And I've got no way to escape this pain that I derive from you
One would think that I might be far better off, far away from you
Unrequited love...
Unrequited love...
But my breath begins to quicken
As you slowly do release
And the feelings I once felt of pain
Will soon begin to cease
And I'll tidy up and wash my face
And start a brand new day
As the horrid memories of the past
Slowly fade away
And the next time I see you I will suddenly forget
All the secrets, pain and lies that haven't started yet
And I'll hold your hand, smile wide, turn and face the sun
But I'll never see the light, 'cuz there's no hope for this one
Unrequited love...
Unrequited love...
So I'm sitting here just gazing into that beautiful face
And my memories are done and gone without a single trace
But in a few, my lips turn blue as darkness creeps back in
Then I start to feel that shot of pain there in my soul again
And I look back and see you smile, just to my dismay
As I falsly reassure myself, "it'll all get better some day"
But we all know I'll never get there to that point where I could say
"Stay away from me your ripping me apart limb by limb, day by day..."
But the next time I see you I will suddenly forget
All the secrets pain and lies that haven't started yet
And I'll hold your hand, smile wide, turn and face the sun
But I'll never see the light, 'cuz there's no hope for this one
Unrequited love...
Unrequited love...
Faith gives me wings to fly
And jealousy tears to cry
I don't know why I can't get over the past
Right now I know I want to be near you
I know I want to hear your heart beating
You seem so far away
And I know it's just one more day
But to me it seems like forever
You seem so far away
And I know it's just one more day
But to me, it's like forever
Faith was the thing keeping me going
I think it was better not knowing where you were
My mind tells me that I'm safe
But deep in the back there's this vivid keepsake of the emptiness I felt
When you seemed so far away
And I knew just what you'd say
And I didn't think I'd like the ending
'Cuz you seemed so far away
And I knew just what you'd say
And I didn't like the ending
Don't ask why I returned the favor
Maybe wanted you to savor the flavor of the emptiness I felt
To me I know your the answer
But why do I feel so much danger when you're outta' my sight.
You seem so far away
And I know it's just one more day
But to me it feels like forever
You seem so far away
And I know it's just one more day
But to me, it's like forever
Right now I know I want to be near you
I know I want to hear your heart beating...
He started life as a regular kid
Was rowdy just like the rest
Now he's livin' the good life
As he has so eagerly confessed
He lives his life for the Good Lord
I live my life just for me
He's always looking for direction
And I loath authority
There is a truth that is out there but who's right we'll wait and see
As long as we are each our own we'll both stay happy
Now here I am tattooed, in a life of sin
At least to him that's what he sees
I'm just being a teenage person
I know that he can't judge me
He may not be into judgement
But he'll surely pray for my soul
"I'm sure you understand your own heart", he says
"That's something only you and God know"
There is a truth that is out there but who's right we'll wait and see
As long as we are each our own we'll both stay happy
He swears his life to the bible
Hell, I probably swear ten times a day
He studies up on revivial
While hosting religious soirees
When I'm in trouble I think my way out
When he's in trouble he prays
Don't get me wrong I was raised with religion
I just don't choose to live it in that radical way
There is a truth that is out there but who's right we'll wait and see
As long as we are each our own we'll both stay happy
"Praise The Lord", he says,
"God has blessed you
Won't you come to a meeting my child"
"No thanks", I say, "that's not for me"
"Oh come on, won't you stay a little while"
I turn around, to walk away
And I hear him say with delight
"We've clicked so much here
See the Lord is working"
and I say, "you're gonna be alright"
There is a truth that is out there but who's right we'll wait and see
As long as we are each our own we'll both stay happy
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of a dark cold night
My brain starts a wondering, and my mind takes flight
What if I weren't there in the morning, who'd be there to watch your back
Who'd be there to kiss your forhead, anytimes your dreams are bad
I can't imagine a moment
I can't imagine a time
I can't imagine a day
Not spent by your side
What if you weren't there in the morning, who'd be there to hold me safe at night
Who'd be there to kiss my nose, when everything's not alright
I can't imagine a moment
I can't imagine a time
I can't imagine a day
Not spent by your side
Simetimes I try to wake up, in the middle of that dark cold night
Just to turn to hear you breathing softly, just to know that you're alright
I can't imagine a moment
I can't imagine a time
I can't imagine a day
Not spent by your side
Not spent by your side...
Ok, so most of my life I've been wrong
But I've never been more certain 'bout something till you came along
You are the first choice that I am actually glad that I made
And now you're here and I pray to God that you are here to stay
I want you to know that I love you more than I've ever loved a thing in this world
And I know that you know that you're always in my heart and you always be my girl
I know I can't see you everyday but I'm sure to see you every night in my dreams
And I just wanna' thank you now for showing me all the love you've shown me
Baby there's no one one on Earth that could or would ever even be
Anything close to you, darlin', listen carefully
I want you to know that I love you more than I've ever loved a thing in this world
And I know that you know that you're always in my heart and you always be my girl
But I don't know how else to show my devotion so true
Look deep in my eyes and you'll see there's a fire inside that burns for you
But I don't know how else to show my devotion so true
Look deep in my eyes and you'll see there's a fire inside and it burns only for you
I want you to know that I love you more than I've ever loved a thing in this world
And I know that you know that you're always in my heart and you always be my girl
I want you to know that I love you more than I've ever loved a thing in this world
And I know that you know that you're always in my heart and you always be my girl...
CD: "Truth"
Released: May 2002
* Upcoming CD *
unreleased
I am awakened from a stuper
By the sound of my own voice
How long have I been talking to myself
When I realize my jaw has dropped
And my mouth just stands agape
Some people read to free their mind
I guess this is my escape
Cuz' I live in a world all my own
And I like it, it's a place that I call home call it home
In my little world
Ruled only by me
Just the right incidents happen
And I see what I want to see
I use my imagination
To a pretty high degree
But I'd rather spend 20 years there sometimes
Than stay where I have to be
Cuz' I live in a world all my own
And I like it, it's a place that I call home call it home
I'm lost in a place
That goes just the way I want it to go
I see my favorite memories
The ones that no one else can know
And I'll know when I've been gone too long
Cuz things won't seem so rough
Yeah, maybe one day I'll write a song about it
If I can pay attention long enough
About how I live in a world all my own
And how I like it, it's a place that I call home call it home
It's 3AM and I'm watching TV
Cuz If I close my eyes I'll think of you
We both know she'll be leaving shortly
After that what will you do
I lie in bed and try to fight the tears
But I am quickly overcome
It's been like this for days now- this pounding in my head
Oh God, what have I become
And now, I stand alone
No one to turn to
I'm out here on my own
I just hope your satisfied with what you've put me through
This was all just harmless fun to you
But don't you dare touch me with those hands you touch her with
I can feel her on your skin and I can taste her on your breath
My stomache turns at the very thought
My heart sinks lower from this pain you've wrought
And now, I stand alone
No one to turn to
I'm out here on my own
I just hope your satisfied with what you've put me through
It was just harmless fun to you
I know the pain I feel inside now
But pretty soon I'll come crawling back
Cuz' I don't know how to just be happy by myself
It's a backbone that I lack
Now, I stand alone
No one to turn to
I'm out here on my own
I just hope your satisfied with what you've put me through
It was just harmless fun to you
One day while walking down the street
I was stopped by a group of neighborhood boys
And I heard things there that I'd never heard before
But I sure didn't like their tone of voice
Then all of the sudden, I heard a familiar
So I turned and there you were right in front of me
You stopped those boys right dead in their tracks
And I never did thank you Emily
And I thought to myself where might I be
If you hadn't come that day and rescued me
And now I think to myself where would I be
Without you in my life watching over me
Not too long after that I hurt myself
And my ankle had to get stitched up
But I knew just as soon as I came hobbling in the door
You'd be the first to want to see it real close up
And I thought to myself where might I be
Without someone else there to grose mom out with me
And now I think to myself where would I be
Without you in my life watching over me
Or that time I was sick with the chicken pox
I was bored so you and I played hide and seek
So I hid in your bed and fell fast asleep
And you had chicken pox for the rest of the week
And I thought to myself how funny
Seemed the pox went straight to you and completely abandoned me
And now I think to myself where would I be
Without you in my life watching over me
You know you and I suffer from the same disease
And it's a hard hard battle to fight
But you've always been there through the toughest time
Holding both of us up with all your might
And I think to myself where might I be
If you weren't always there to comfort me
And now I think to myself where would I be
Without you in my life watching over me
I can feel you watching me
With my sad eyes on the road
I feel your touch on the back of my neck
And my love for you just grows
Finally my heart is in the right place
Just as right as it can be
And all I'm asking of you now baby is your
Loving arms wrapped around me yeah yeah
I can see my mood is changing
It says so right here on my hand
But as for my exact emotions
Well I can't say I really understand
Cuz' I've lost my guide that tells me where to go
I just sense that it's with you
But as far as your feelings for me
There ain't much more that I can do
When finally my heart is in the right place
Just as right as it can be
And all I'm asking of you now baby is your
Loving arms wrapped around me yeah yeah
I look deep into those beautiful eyes
And I can tell your scared inside
But I just wish you wouldn't worry baby
I've got nothing left to hide... I've nothing left to hide
Cuz' finally my heart is in the right place
Just as right as it can be
And all I'm asking of you now baby is your
Loving arms wrapped around me yeah yeah
Looking down into an audience
Of people just like me
I see smiles and hope on their faces
Just seeing that makes me so happy
But I can only hope to be a small inspiration
Like the many that came before me
To the people who made me what I am today
I hope I can do that to some small degree
It seems I'm seeing stars
Everywhere I look there they are
I see so much potential in the eyes below
And I have since a long ago
Yes I have since long ago
In the car, behind the wheel
Assesing the damage in front of me
If I had only been paying attention
There goes my karma for the week
But at least we're all ok
Aside from a headache I'll have all day
We all made it out alive
Might not get so lucky next time
But now it seems I'm seeing stars
Everywhere I look there they are
I'm dazed and confused, just let me sit here on the ground
I've gotta learn to slow down...
I've gotta learn to slow down
Now this is a worse case scenario
It's love at first sight
When it's hard to tell what's real or fake
Is it just a fly by night
When your so swept up in everything about them
And your heart starts to palipitate
Everytime they walk on by you ask yourself
Could this be your soul mate
And it seems your seeing stars
Everywhere you look there they are
Will this true love stretch for eternity
Or will you find yourself sweeping up your heart's debris...
Or will you find yourself sweeping up your heart's debris
And it seems I'm seeing stars
Everywhere I look there they are
Isn't it convenient
To want to stop the games
Cuz now it's you who's getting hurt
Now I'm not so lenient
Cuz now you'll finally realize
What it feels like in the dirt
But you will never see
The places I have been
Maybe when you're older
You'll remember back when
The things you used to say
The things you used to do
And now you're finally ready
And you want my back with you
Isn't it convenient
To want to stop the games
Cuz now it's you who's getting hurt
Now I'm not so lenient
Cuz now you'll finally realize
What it feels like in the dirt
I had broken down
Done everything I could
And you did what you did
Which I never thought you would